10 Feet Tall and Bullet Proof!

This is what Adam says I think of myself as. I'm 5' 2'', 120lb, but I don't see myself that way! :)

I guess that's what Rocky and I have in common. He wouldn't classify himself as a small dog. Oh.. No... He considers himself to fit right in with the big ones!

Not that I think I'm big and bad. :) I just always seem to overestimate my capabilities. Or at least aim for the higher stuff. That can be a good thing. But it does tend to catch up with me sometimes.

This is the usual progression....

I had Cooper... 11 months later had Gracie.... I always knew I wanted to be a stay-at-home mom, but being that I like to shop and participate in one of the most expensive hobbies out there, I also like to make extra money.

I've tried tutoring, working at a coffee shop. I teach my spin classes. Anything that I can squeeze in here and there not only for a little extra cash, but also because I think it's fun! I like a lot of different things. But I also like to go for things all out. So sometimes I lose track of the balancing part of things!

Well about a year and a half ago I started working at the restaurant as the Special Events Coordinator. After about 10 months of travelling an hour and a half each way back and forth from there a couple of times a week and cramming in a full-time job with trying to stay home and do everything I was doing, I knew it was too much. So fortunately last October, I cut back to more of a part-time basis.

However, I've been a stay-at-home mother, the primary caretaker of our household (although Adam really does help out A LOT around the house, so I will definitely give him props! :), working part-time for the restaurant, now working part-time for PT Solutions as a trainer, continuing to teach my spin classes, and then Team mom for the baseball team and ballet classes, mixed in with my training, my own personal physical therapy, etc., etc., etc....

I enjoy all of these things! And the problem is that looking at any of them singularly, I think, "Oh it's not that much." But in the adding it all together process, I've found myself completely overwhelmed and burnt-out!

I feel like one of those people trying to balance 100 plates in the air and that they're all about to come down and crash! :)

I also HATE being bad at stuff. I know that sounds retarded, but I hate knowing that I could be better at something if I were able to devote more time to it. So I'd honestly rather be really good at a few of these things than mediocre at all of them.

Honestly though Summer is here in less than 2 weeks!! We wrapped up ballet yesterday. Baseball wraps up this weekend, and May has been a super busy month at the restaurant. Friday night I actually even had to waitress! It was fun to a certain degree in the fact that it's something I've actually never done.

What stunk is after getting up at 4:45am on Friday morning to go to Masters, then onto a 3:30 somewhat intense ride, then hurry to pick up the kids to get home, change, and then head out. I sat in traffic for no lie... 3 HOURS!! to get from my house to the restaurant!! Some accident on 85 North left 3 lanes closed down and so I could have gotten there faster if I'd have walked I think! But after all of that, I worked for almost 4 hours waiting on a rehearsal dinner that we'd planned and I ended up having to help out because Bob and I had a miscommunication with the events, double-booked the room accidentally, and we were short on staff. So we had to do what we had to do. I left there close to 10pm having had no dinner. I was starving, tired, and had to drive 1:15 home to go to bed so that I could get up on Sat. run for almost 2 hours and go through the entire busy weekend that progressed.

I thought when the weekend finally came to an end that I was almost free and clear. I kept telling myself to just get through this next week and then I'd taper for Honu and ballet and baseball would be over and we'd be almost through this crazy month at the restaurant. But yesterday I was a HUGE B$$CH! I found myself snapping at the kids a lot. I was grumpy and tired, and when I get like this I eat like crap, which of course makes things worse.

All and all, I decided last night that I needed a break! I want this summer to be a true summer break. I am going to be travelling quite a bit, and therefore I'm going to have to trim some fat. So no extras for the entire month of June and July. And as much as I hate to do it, I am going to have to cut back on some of my part-time jobs. I don't want a full-time job, nor do I have the time for one, and if you have 3 or more part-time jobs, I think it's almost equivalent! :)

I'm anxious to focus on the personal training and start building that business. I want to be able to devote the time and energy needed in doing that especially as I prepare to get my USAT Coaching certification.

So, I'm starting today in readjusting my schedule to make life and me flow a little more easily!

I know that sometimes emails or blogs don't always convey the tone of the message appropriately and so I wanted to reiterate that this is a REALLY good thing for me! It takes a lot for me to back down some. Because as I'd stated earlier... I'm 10 feet tall and bullet proof and apparently thinK that I'm some sort of superwoman that can handle any and everything. As I know a lot of you people out there operate! So it's good for me to back down and take a breather. At least for now!

Hopefully some of these new decisions will help me go into Honu feeling less overloaded!

So thanks for reading. I hope everyone has a day in which they get to really enjoy the things they do!

K :)